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First and foremost, I am a Christian woman: I love Jesus! In this blog you will find stories of trying to conceive with PCOS, MTHFR, Poor egg quality, a unicornuate uteterus, and too many babies in heaven. It is a good thing God is the ultimate healer! Here you will find praise! and you may also find venting (I'm not perfect...) and you will find other stories of my crazy life. All the while through this journey I am holding on to scripture & hoping to one day be a mother here on Earth (waiting on God & His perfect timing...why am I so impatient?) But in the meantime, here you will find me: Jessica, loving wife, hopeful heart of a mother, and faithful friend.

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CAUTION

All writing in this blog is unedited and 100% from what I am feeling at the time. By continuing to read it means that you will take my vents with a grain of salt. You will choose to not take offense. And most of all, if you know me in real life you will either choose to stop reading or keep the knowledge of this blog quiet, and privately allow me to know you are reading. I only share this information with close friends. I do not share this with facebook for a purpose: it is meant to be semi-private. Not "public" knowledge in the sense of the majority of those in real life knowing about it. If you can accept all that has been stated, sit back, grab a box of tissues, and be prepared to endure the rocky road of trying to conceive while trying to get out of the shadows of infertility.

If you have any private questions or concerns you may contact me at mynotesonttc at gmail.com



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The Road that Led us Here

August 2005 
Started dating James

April 2006 
 God truly started pulling on my heartstrings, James talked me into going to church

November 2006  
Walk to Emmaus, Gave my Life to Jesus

May 2007 
James and I moved to Saginaw, to go to SVSU

?? 2007 
James gave his life to Christ! :-) Praise God!

April 2008 
Decided Saginaw wasn't for us and moved home

August 2008 
James proposed! And got a blood clot from NuVa Ring. This brought on our challenge to stop having sex before marriage.

December 2008 
Finally officially started challenge to no sex.

??? 2009
  James and I baptized at the same time!

August 2009 
Married the Love of My Life!

May 2010 
My heart feels so broken about wanting to be a mommy,
but it not being the time for us yet.
My heart yearns for this.
Mother's Day was a really tough day for me.

June 2010
Thought for SURE I was pregnant. Not tests showed me I was (Did I toss them too soon?).
Doctor refused blood work.
45 day cycle, usual cycle 28-30

July 2010 
Doctor discusses PCOS with us, and the fact that if that is what I have...
we may need to start trying sooner than later.
 Hubby & I decide to have unprotected sex from here on out.
I think God was prepping my heart in May 2010...

August 2010
Celebrated 1 year anniversary, and diagnosed with PCOS

November 2010
  BFP 2 days before my birthday! First appointment at the doctors was on my birthday.
Had 9.7 progesterone level. Was put on prometrium 4x a day and lovenox for clotting history.
Later I miscarried on Thanksgiving. Chemical Pregnancy. 6w0d

December 2010
BFP on Christmas! hCg levels were GREAT! Doubled like they were supposed to and everything. Progesterone 14.97. Again put on prometrium 4x a day and lovenox.

January 2011 
u/s of little baby doesn't show a heart beat :-(
News of Blighted Ovum. Miscarriage #2.
Induced by Cytotec, worst pain ever!

February 2011
Closed on our House!

April 2011
First cycle back TTC. Diagnosed with MTHFR after many tests.
Now taking baby aspirin, 4mg additional folic acid, prenatal, fish oil, B complex, and Vitamin D

May 2011
Found out I have cruddy eggs, will need clomid to "beef them up" to be able to support pregnancy.
This is why I always have low progesterone.

June 2011
BFP!Very faint but definitely visible.

July 2011
A day after BFP quant hcg is 4.9.
Chemical Pregnancy. Loss #3 (5w4d)
Started Vitex and Dandelion supplements. TTC for 1 year.

August 2011
Married for 2 years. Together for 6 years.
First Cycle on Clomid - 50mg CD 3-7
Progesterone 17.69
TSH - a little lower than my usual, but normal
Glucose - tad high (uh Oh!)
Cholesterol - pretty good

September 2011
Second Cycle on Clomid - 100mg CD 3-7
Progesterone 25.62 (YAY!)
Glucose was good on fasting test
AF was horrid.

October 2011
Third Cycle on Clomid - 100mg CD 4-8
1,500mg metformin until O and then 1,000mg metformin rest of cycle
late ovulation CD 20

November 2011
NT/NP month #1,  having a very hard holiday season.
One year from first loss. Very emotional
1,000mg metformin....not tracking ovulation with OPKs anymore
Very faint line that I consider another early loss/chemical. Miscarriage #4


December 2011
NT/NP month #2
HSG done on 12/16...diagnosed with Unicornuate Uterus
MRI confirms...but I have 2 kidneys! And maybe 2 ureters as well.
And two ovaries, but one is accessible due to 1 fallopian tube.
(It is amazing I got pregnant 2 months in a row back in 2010!)

January 2012
NT/NP month #3
Went to fertility seminar. Talked to RE within group setting.
He recommends IUI with Clomid/Letrazole.
Got price quotes....will be waiting awhile.
Began weight loss journey!

February 2012
NT/NP month #4
Somehow every month even with NT/NP my heart gets hopeful...
And for a reason...this cycle lead into march


March 2012

Faint BFP 11dpo, 13dpo hcg 12.8, Progesterone 26.38,
15dpo hcg less than 2
 early miscarriage.
Begin NT/NP month #5


April 2012
17 pounds down! Woohoow

 And SURPRISE!! BFP!!
4/13 beta #1 - 170, Progesterone 29.97
4/15 beta #2 - 495.5
4/17 beta #3 - 892.5
4/19 beta #3 - 2,199

EDD is December 17, 2012

Due to being high risk this pregnancy has been watched like a hawk.

Biweekly appointments from 14w-28w w/ultrasound to check cervical length
(which btw I passed with flying colors each time!)
Growth ultrasounds at 19w, 23w, 27w, 31w, 35w, 39w
Baby has been head down the entire time thus far!