Often things strike my heart and want to come bursting forth. They come spilling out onto the page, or computer screen. With ink filling pages or my fingers flying across the keyboard, my mind going a million miles a minute, and my heart crying out to be heard. Here is where you’ll find those things, my little notes on life.
Little Bit About Me
- Jess
- First and foremost, I am a Christian woman: I love Jesus! In this blog you will find stories of trying to conceive with PCOS, MTHFR, Poor egg quality, a unicornuate uteterus, and too many babies in heaven. It is a good thing God is the ultimate healer! Here you will find praise! and you may also find venting (I'm not perfect...) and you will find other stories of my crazy life. All the while through this journey I am holding on to scripture & hoping to one day be a mother here on Earth (waiting on God & His perfect timing...why am I so impatient?) But in the meantime, here you will find me: Jessica, loving wife, hopeful heart of a mother, and faithful friend.
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If you have any private questions or concerns you may contact me at mynotesonttc at gmail.com
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Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Bump Update, Ultrasound Visit, and More!
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Bump Update!
I am pretty much using the same post for my update on my family blog, so if you read both, sorry! Can you say lazy a little bit today?
Little man you are one day away from viability!! I did some research and you would be considered a micro preemie, you'd have eyelashes, and eyebrows. But your little eyes would still be fused shut. You'd need help to breath due to premature lung development, and it would be a long journey in the NICU. You'd be about the length of a corn cob, and weigh around a pound and a half (amazing that I am carrying you inside of me and you grew from smaller than a pin head to how big you are now! And some days by how much movement I feel you definitely feel SO much bigger!). One of the factors that impact survival at this age is birth weight, which makes me so happy that you were in the 55th percentile at last appointment, and were guessed to weigh 1lb 4 oz already. They say that babies that weigh more than 2lbs 3 oz do much better than those that weigh less.
BUT the good thing is, God has answered my prayers to have a cervix of steel, and you are safe and sound inside my womb still! I truly believe I do not need to worry about preterm delivery (especially this early) but I love being informed and educated about EVERYTHING it seems. If I don't know something, Google becomes my best friend. I hope you have this same craving for education and learning random facts about random things. I pray you will excel in school, and you will love life and learning something new every day.
On to the bump photos...here they are! I am smiling even though I feel like a hillbilly because my front tooth's bonding that fixed a chip in my left front tooth fell out! It is horrible. And quite embarrassing. You cannot tell in these pictures, but when I laugh or talk, it is not pretty. I am so blessed to have good teeth, minus this one chip. I pray for you that you have strong, healthy, cavity resistant, teeth! Right now it feels so awkward to smile, to eat, and to talk. Not fun! And to top it off, I cannot get into the dentist until Friday, and my first day of class is Thursday!! Seriously, what dentist goes on vacation? :-P
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| You can tell this is the side little guy sits on if you look at me facing this way and compare it to me facing the other way |
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| See! Not quite as big looking! lol But look how long my hair is getting! :-D I LOVE it! |

I also realized I never shared the ultrasound pics from last week's appointment so here they are....

ALSO, I THINK I finally got a video that shoes my belly moving some. Not as good as it has been, but I got him finally. I will try uploading it, it should be on my bottom left hand side of belly (note this is the side I didn't have a uterus on, it has grown that much in that direction!) at around 3-4 seconds and somewhere around 10 seconds.
Monday, August 13, 2012
Reality...
James looked at me on the way home from the zoo (a few pictures to come!) And said, "I am finally starting to get excited because it is feeling more real."
Enough to bring a big smile to my face and joy in my heart. Because while it feels real to me, he has yet to feel a kick. He sees my belly expanding but even if it feels large and in charge to me I'm not HUGE yet (though I have gained 8lbs now....gah! 18 weeks to go (and 1 or 2 days) maybe I can make it through without gaining more than original start weight when I began exercising and watching what I ate). I said max I wanted to gain was 15. 7lbs in 18 weeks? Maybe! I am going to be a better girl with eatting habits from here on out.
Anyways, James and I also got to talking about how surprised we were our baby is a boy. We are having a son! His brother has 3 adorable little girls so we thought we were going to follow suit with the girl streak. We currently have the ONLY male from a hillard male in the family, growing safely and soundly in my belly.
And then I got to thinking and talking to God about what a keeper this llittle boy will be. He will grow up knowiing how to treat women, he'll be able to fix things around the house, if anything like the both of us he will have a musical streak. A sensitive side, a great sense of humor and loyalty. And I am sure he will be a handsome little fella!
(Though I did have a dream I thought the baby was ugly, how sad!! LOL I am sure as a mother that is impossible, but due to my family joking and wishing worst family traits on this little being the dream happened. Big ears, big nose...dumbo in the making.)
I do hope to one day have a little girl, but one step at a time. Currently God has blessed us with a little boy and I am looking forward to being his Mommy!
To Do...
Paint the Nursery
Look for room theme I like (thinking jungle)
REGISTER <<<Ahhh!
Research which cloth diapers to try
Start setting up nursery...how amazing to think about!






