Reality...

James looked at me on the way home from the zoo (a few pictures to come!) And said, "I am finally starting to get excited because it is feeling more real."

Enough to bring a big smile to my face and joy in my heart. Because while it feels real to me, he has yet to feel a kick. He sees my belly expanding but even if it feels large and in charge to me I'm not HUGE yet (though I have gained 8lbs now....gah! 18 weeks to go (and 1 or 2 days) maybe I can make it through without gaining more than original start weight when I began exercising and watching what I ate). I said max I wanted to gain was 15. 7lbs in 18 weeks? Maybe! I am going to be a better girl with eatting habits from here on out.

Anyways, James and I also got to talking about how surprised we were our baby is a boy. We are having a son! His brother has 3 adorable little girls so we thought we were going to follow suit with the girl streak. We currently have the ONLY male from a hillard male in the family, growing safely and soundly in my belly.

And then I got to thinking and talking to God about what a keeper this llittle boy will be. He will grow up knowiing how to treat women, he'll be able to fix things around the house, if anything like the both of us he will have a musical streak. A sensitive side, a great sense of humor and loyalty. And I am sure he will be a handsome little fella!

(Though I did have a dream I thought the baby was ugly, how sad!! LOL I am sure as a mother that is impossible, but due to my family joking and wishing worst family traits on this little being the dream happened. Big ears, big nose...dumbo in the making.)

I do hope to one day have a little girl, but one step at a time. Currently God has blessed us with a little boy and I am looking forward to being his Mommy!

To Do...
Paint the Nursery
Look for room theme I like (thinking jungle)
REGISTER <<<Ahhh!
Research which cloth diapers to try
Start setting up nursery...how amazing to think about!