God is Good All the Time.

Choosing joy isn't always easy.
Nor is trading your sorrows, shame, or whatever it is that is holding you back from Jesus for love, acceptance, and forgiveness.

To put it simply, God is good through it all. All the time.

Our pellet stove is still broken. We live in Michigan and it is getting cold out, today they have been predicting 6-10 inches. But God is GOOD. He supplied us with a friend that let us borrow an electric heater and a coupon to save money on the other one that we purchased. Plus we had bought a little propane heater when we were waiting to be able to purchase pellets. So we are warm, by the standards of what the weather is doing outside. I cannot complain about 64. I cannot complain that the house gets down to 59. There are people in Michigan that struggle with homelessness, so I cannot complain about our circumstances.

Finances are still a struggle at the moment, but we are blessed to have jobs. My goal is that in 2015 I will no longer be saying finances suck, but instead be able to say that we are sitting much better off.

I am not going back to school, but I have came to the conclusion that God is will me on this decision as well. One day I will continue with school, and one day I will be able to be a labor and delivery nurse. But for now I will continue taking care of the elderly and show them love and gentle touches while caring for them to the best of my ability.

I am blessed. I choose joy.

Instead of focusing on how we have not gotten pregnant again. I am leaning on how adorable Matthew's giggles are, They are truly balm to my wounds. I choose joy in the midst of our waiting, because we have been given a gift.

On that note....we are trying to night wean Matthew, I wouldn't mind continuing to nurse IF I got good sleep at night and thought I was able to carry a healthy term baby while breastfeeding. It is going to be a slow progress I think. The other day Matthew says to us, "Baby!" James in a snarky mood due to being woke up several times during the middle of the night, and far too long between intimate times due to Matthew not sleeping well says, "If you would sleep by yourself, in your own bed then Mom and Dad could make a baby!" No joke. Made me laugh, quite hard.

TTC notes....I missed being able to use OPKs this month. But I experienced cramping for more days than usual. I am wondering if I ovulated from both sides, OR if we did successfully catch an egg. I try not to let my mind wander to the what ifs. But baby fever is real my friends, even in the midst of joy. I am currently somewhere between 1-3 DPO. And still somewhat cramping.

Weight....I am trying to lose weight. But failing. Desperately. We are talking I weighed in with shoes on last week and this week weighed in without them and lost 2 lbs. We are talking cheesecake for my birthday and apple crumble being baked to warm our house up. Cupcakes at small group, and not enough water. Oh well, I will get there. Choosing the holidays to try to lose weight obviously was not my best idea. :-(

Well thanks for listening. I have got a house to clean! :-)