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First and foremost, I am a Christian woman: I love Jesus! In this blog you will find stories of trying to conceive with PCOS, MTHFR, Poor egg quality, a unicornuate uteterus, and too many babies in heaven. It is a good thing God is the ultimate healer! Here you will find praise! and you may also find venting (I'm not perfect...) and you will find other stories of my crazy life. All the while through this journey I am holding on to scripture & hoping to one day be a mother here on Earth (waiting on God & His perfect timing...why am I so impatient?) But in the meantime, here you will find me: Jessica, loving wife, hopeful heart of a mother, and faithful friend.

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All writing in this blog is unedited and 100% from what I am feeling at the time. By continuing to read it means that you will take my vents with a grain of salt. You will choose to not take offense. And most of all, if you know me in real life you will either choose to stop reading or keep the knowledge of this blog quiet, and privately allow me to know you are reading. I only share this information with close friends. I do not share this with facebook for a purpose: it is meant to be semi-private. Not "public" knowledge in the sense of the majority of those in real life knowing about it. If you can accept all that has been stated, sit back, grab a box of tissues, and be prepared to endure the rocky road of trying to conceive while trying to get out of the shadows of infertility.

If you have any private questions or concerns you may contact me at mynotesonttc at gmail.com



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Wednesday, June 17, 2015

I Cried

My husband and I were watching seasons of Parenthood. When the tears flooded in unexpectedly.

I cried for the baby we just lost. I cried out about the dream of having a big family. Of wanting at least 4 kids, and our struggle to just have Matthew.

About financial struggles that I had never dreamed for us. I cried.

I cried. About dreams gone by and now I am left in the aftermath asking God to give me peace and guide our path. Because thus far my dreams have been trampled in the mud.

Like my car in the flooded road. Ruined for the moment with need to deep clean get down to the bear basics and slowly put back together....some day, maybe.

*sigh*

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