Matthew is the light in my world.
He makes me so overjoyed. I could stare at him all day.
But then there are those screaming moments, when I think "can't I just get a moment to crap in peace?" (pretty sure this will not happen again til he is MUCH MUCH older).
Matthew is now 7 weeks old. And a chunky monkey. His appointment is on the 28th so I can update weight then but last time I did our scale here (me and him minus my weight) he weighed a little over 11lbs.
My brain is scattered right now due to sleepiness, so bare with me.
I was going to wait to go back to work until at least 8 weeks, and then crappy finances happened. So we decided 6 weeks. He is 7 weeks and I still haven't worked.
I asked work if I could work the minimum 4 days a pay period (2 weeks) so I can be in a schedule/routine for when school starts up in February. PLUS he JUST started getting the concept of breast feeding. Like seriously getting milk from the tap instead of in a bottle.
The answer I got wasn't even from the main schedule or the Director of Nursing (both of which I called and left a voicemail...and a week later neither have called me back). I got told it shouldn't be an issue but to try to get a doctor's slip explaining that I can only work 4 days a pay period due to breast feeding a late term preemie, and possibly the stress of going to school. Well my OB said nope, we cannot do that. So now it is up to my regular doctor. I'm not holding my breath, sadly.
SO it is all up in the air and my name still isn't on the schedule. Joy. Looks like it might bet 10 weeks!
Anyways, Matthew is doing wonderful. He still only sleeps 3-4 hours at night. And I am still sleeping with him on my chest in a recliner. I have put him on his tummy in the crib (he seriously will not sleep on his back unless it is like over an hour after feeding and even then it is less than 30 minutes), and then laid down with my husband...but I slept so hard that I didn't hear him cry. James did. And upon waking me I answered, "I'm pumping right now. I can't" Ummmm...I was sleeping, and then laughed at myself.
His sleeping schedule is out of whack. But that's what he gets having a third shift mom. I feel sorry for James on the nights I end up going to work. Because he sleeps too hard to let him sleep on his chest, and I am nervous for him to not wake up to him crying in the middle of the night.
James is now on a schedule of 7-5 at work. SO he gets up around 5am and goes to bed between 8 and 10pm depending on what time he wants to get up and how tired he is. HE is. I haven't forced James to get up in the middle of the night. Partly because he is working hard for us (50 hrs a week), but mostly because I enjoy the snuggles with our son.
Matthew eats 4-5 oz anywhere from 2.5 hours to 4 hours OR he will breast feed for 30 minutes + and then an hour later want another go again, then be good for a couple of hours. I have to watch his sucking to figure out if he is sucking for comfort or for nourishment. If for comfort, I detach him.
Oh and btw, AF has came back. I have had my first period already. James and I have been using condoms when we have sex. But the question still remains...do we try rather soon because of how long it took us to have Matthew? Do we NTNP and leave it up to God? or Do we just find contentment on the fact that we may or may not have another, and just choose to prevent for the time being.
On my weight front...I still have to lose around 15lbs if not more. I ate more cookies than santa over the holidays and haven't lost as much as I had hoped. I need to start counting calories again and exercising.
Which is hard to do with a son that likes to be held most of the time. I use a carrier to try to get things done around the house.
On fussiness...he is the gassiest baby I have ever met! AND he only poops every two days, occasionally every three. I have a very happy baby the day he poops.
Glad you are surviving life with a new baby! It is totally exhausting! Hoping that you get your work schedule figured out. That must be frustrating to deal with!
ReplyDeleteBy the way, Matthew is getting so big! I can't believe he is already 7 weeks old!
He is already growing so much!
ReplyDeleteAwe I've been thinking about you :) id say wondering where you've been but I know :) haha. Did you get my email? He is just too cute (if there is such a thing) :)
ReplyDeleteI cannot wait to see him again :) he's going to grow up to be quite spoiled, I guess thats the perks of having majority of Aunties :) haha
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