Life Stressors

Sometimes life gets too crazy to even function. Like a car with dirty spark plugs, you sputter around not functioning at full capacity.

That has been me lately. But add a cracked windshield, tons of trash, baby items, school crap, and dog hair on the inside and you will have my car. Same for my husband's car but add a muffler that makes you think motorcycle is coming vs a car and delete the school junk...

Our house? It has been inhabitable for some. I hadn't vacuumed in a month. My floor was missing beneath baby clothes, laundry sitting in baskets ready to be folded, and dog hair. Kitchen counters hidden beneath dirty dishes. Table hidden beneath mail. You get the picture.

I got fired from work for my tardies that had accumulated. And then re-hired for pool (per diem). Which means: a 16c raise, no benefits (we only had dental and life), and no more union dues.

Then that day I got fired I left my key on in my car (turned so I could listen to the radio....idk what in the world I was thinking). And it sat there...for 2 days. Until dead. Dead dead. Like the day we jumped it that night it sat smoking and smelling like sulfur when we got home. The next day just to take it down to James's dad's it was boiling. We are lucky it didn't blow up. Yup go me.

So while things are in ruins (car, house, finances, etc), I start to slowly realize how much we are missing God in our home. I have leaned on God for school, and it is the one area going decently well.

So I have to start leaning on Him more, and giving him more praise and coming to him with an open heart and pour out of myself so HE can fill me up and give me whatever it is I need.

The corn sales allowed us to have the money for the battery. Praise GOD!
We have a month until my refund check, that will allow us to catch up on bills. Thank the Lord.
I have a job!
We have Matthew, whom by the way is getting big WAY too fast.

I have realized I think I was in more of a funk, after the bump in our relationship back in February. I hadn't laughed as much as usual. Things have been slipping away from me. Just overwhelmed with life.

But all will be well as I lean on God and find me some rest.

Bills will still be there, but I can pray that the sweet corn sells quickly and leaves us with a good profit!

AF still hasn't arrived and I am itching to TTC again, but we are going to leave it up to God's timing so our wishes will *hopefully* match up with his bettor. One day of spotting, now great occasional brown. Blah

Anyways, I need to catch some actual rest. Sorry if jambled, exhausted