Again...someone asks me if I am expecting. Now I have been wondering the past few days with fatigue and nausea that comes in waves at times. But those things could be due to fluctuations in hormones and in my head due to norovirus going around at work.
But to come up and ask me if I was expecting? Come on. I know I am fat. I know I look exhausted. But seriously? My response? "Nope just miscarriage after miscarriage."
Not even joking.
I have to update on weight I know, I am slacking. But life has taken over and I have been lazy towards my goal.
Anyways, so now I get to go buy a pregnancy test to see if I am crazy and the world is crazy or if I really have some reason to be feeling exhausted and nauseated and be asked if I am expecting.
Already the prayers have started. Let me not be pregnant unless you are ready to give us another take home baby. Jesus, I don't know how many more miscarriages I can seriously go through and still cling to the hope of another rainbow gracing our family. Please listen to the desires of my heart and allow my next pregnancy to flourish in my womb by your hand. Blessed by your mercy and grace. Take this thorn of infertility from my heart. Heal my womb. But do not let me get pregnant to have another loss and another loss until we lose hope in your plan.
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