I will be. (Ramblings in the Night)

I will be pregnant again one day.
With a baby that is meant to stay.
I will be fit again
And work out to my DVD of Bob and Jillian.

I with find my faith strong,
Instead of grappling for it in the dark.
After thing after thing goes wrong.
I will let Him be my guiding force.

I will.

But right now?

I will cry at life's unfairness.
And drink a large glass of wine.
I will say "God I just don't get it!"
And plead "God maybe next time?"

I will eat a milky way and drink some vernors.
Laugh at TV shows.
And allow my day to continue on.
I will dream and hope as no one could ever know.

For life to give us a break.
For there to not be as much of a fight.
Just to stay afloat.
I will be okay though.

I will be, but right now...I am not.

But I will be. Give me a few days. Or maybe even a week. I have bounced back before. And again I will.