Anxiety Abounds

I wasn't sure what to title this. I have had a long adventurous couple of weeks.

○ I went to the ortho surgeon and my surgery is scheduled 8/28 due to acl tear that is holding on by a meager thread. At the beginning of the appointment they wanted to do an xray and asked if there was any chance I was pregnant. I told them very minimal as we have had sex a couple of times near o and I was just about a week past ovulation. So they didn't let me do the x-ray.

○ I still haven't called a lawyer I am dragging my feet because I feel guilty and like my place of employment should just pick it up under their liability since I fell there on water, regardless if there was a wet floor sign or not. It was more wet than anticipate, even though I saw the sign. And what if I was an elderly family member? I could have broke a hip.

○ Update : I called a lawyer today. Should hear back tomorrow or Friday.

○ I tested because I thought maybe I was pregnant. BFN. I was okay with it. Finances are no bueno.

○ James' last day is Friday so I have to clarify one more time that there is no lapse in cobra. Because let me tell you I am not paying for an entire acl repair out of pocket with no insurance.

○ I am still in debate about what kind of graft I am wanting for surgery. It is giving me anxiety.

○ so is finances from not working as much. As in I went from working 6-8 days every two weeks to 2-3. We were planning on being in the most comfortable position we have been in in a VERY long time by the end of September. Instead we are falling behind. And it is a major disaster financially and it is giving me anxiety. Big Time. Like worry about losing house anxiety.

○ I may still have to step out of school this next semester due to finances. We shall see. The deciding factor will be if they allow payments on my summer semester to be stretched out some more.

Writing all of this is giving me more anxiety than peace so I am out of here for now to read and try to get my brain to shut down so I can get some sleep.