Fell again.

End of May/early June I fell in our driveway and got a huge gash on my left knee. Stitches followed by cellulitis followed by skin pushing out stitches (that was fun) and finally it was healed enough I said "I am going to start exercising this week."

And then I decided to visit the nursing home I work at. And I fell on some water in my flip flops. Did the splits with Matthew on my hip. They had a sign up but it was more wet than I had anticipated. I felt and heard some pops on my way down. And immediately knew something wasn't right.

The girls sent me to occ med in case workman's comp would pick it up. They denied it of course due to my visiting. And it occurring before I got to talk to the nursing office about the schedule I had in my back pocket for them.

Well I waited and worked on my knee before seeking another opinion from my family doctor mostly due to inability to get an appointment that fit in my schedule. He said I kneaded an MRI but he thought it was a MCL tear. So I get to wear a lovely knee immobilizer for 4 weeks (it starts week 2 on Wednesday). Well the MRI shows a torn ACL as well as MCL. Which usually means surgery.

I do not have short term disability. I don't have any sick time because I am pool (casual/per diem). And feeling quite disheartened. I should be hearing from the ortho surgeon on my knee this week. Might actually call them today.

It just seems that Satan found out I was surviving my miscarriages okay....so let's attack Jessica health. The really sad thing is if I have to have surgery due to the restrictions that causes I would not be able to continue with nursing school. So prayers that it is a minor ACL tear and that the immobilizer will heal my MCL and I can finish nursiny school in May before getting surgery. Or that essential oils would help to heal it without surgery would be fantastic.

Another predicament is that everyone is telling me to seek a lawyer to make works liability insurance cover all of this due to it being on their grounds etc etc. I am not a sue-happy person but if I get taken off from work for 3 months unpaid we will lose our house.

Life definitely throws us curve balls sometimes. I have been trying to lean on scripture and prayer to get me through but I just feel so weak and disheartened about the whole situation. Breaks my heart for sure.

I really do not know how I did color guard because I am not graceful. At all.