Long Nails. & Babies

It has been confirmed for me I ovulated well last month. This may sound absolutely ridiculous but when I ovulate or am pregnant my body decides to let my nails grow. Normally they are short. This month my nails are flurrishing. Growing like crazy. 

Long nails for this girl and so excited :-)

Hoping this means changes coming in general with my body. Like after losing 10 more pounds maybe a belly growing round with baby. I keep looking back at my photos of Matthew's pregnancy and it brings a flood of memories from joy and disbelief that I got to experience those moments to a deep longing in my soul and a thankfulness that God gave me the motivation to document that journey as well as I did.

I will say I wrote this Friday night. I HAD long finger nails and then I had a terrible day at work and I picked them off when feeling anxious. Oh well...

And then there are babies. Matthew now 100% understands babies come from bellies. He was sitting on my best friend's lap when her son kicked him! She is due the 8th of October so she is definitely round with baby and we talk about baby Logan in Aunt Jenny's belly quite a bit. Anyways he jumped off her lap and said "Baby! Baby!"

It was so precious.

And then the most heartbreakingly adorable thing happened today.....When snuggling on the couch he patted my belly and asked, "Baby Mama?" I said no Matthew Mama doesn't have a baby in her belly. We have to pray and pray big prayers so God will give us another baby. One day he will listen to us.  He looked at me again patting my belly and said "Mama, baby." Nope no baby, just food. A big belly from eating too much cake.

lol oh boy. I hope God answers several prayers in next few weeks. We have to get caught up on bills faster the better. And for God to look favorably on us soon with fertility, especially if finances are looking up and we are eating healthier. God is a big God.

Mini Vent...
I was telling a coworker I needed to lose weight because I wanted to have another baby, she laughed as she is a bigger lady and just had a baby. And all I could think of inside was that not everyone is able to stay obese or overweight and get pregnant. It is a hurdle God set before me in order for me to lean on Him...so don't laugh and say that I'm not fat or I don't need to lose weight. Gah...end mini rant. on another note, I do want to be more physically fit when we get pregnant because I have a demanding job and I do not want to be miserable every day just walking around. I already have to wear a female jock strap no need to add to it.