Challenge

My co-workers were doing a challenge for 30 days to give up one thing to better yourself be it swearing pop candy or TV. I just couldn't decide on something with my surgery coming up I knew food was impractical because when you hurt....you don't feel like cooking and take the quick way out (and hence the scale reads 201....*sigh*).

So what did I do instead? Picked up my Bible. And started reading! Daily! And I am trying to write in a prayer journal about every other day at this moment in time. I have been reading the Blended plan on the youversion Bible app. I am in Isaiah and oh buddy is that some crazy stuff. I have even read it out loud to Matthew once or twice...and thought I don't know how you could fall asleep to this! It is kind of dark.

Anyways, I have also been reading 2 other devotionals. One for me and one to help me look at aspects of our marriage ...and I can tell you I can sense the changes in multiple aspects of my life.

I find myself stopping when I am starting to feel anxious and worry and quoting scripture to myself and praying. I am finding myself praying for my husband more. For the prospect of another baby and being debt free. I am also starting to realize I haven't been praying for both of my friends that are pregnant like I should be. It made me feel like a horrible horrible person.

I am finding so much joy in the life that God is creating in others and reminding myself that God keeps his promises and he listens to the desires of my heart. I really feel he has promised me one more baby. Beyond that I do not know. It is entirely in His hands! So is the fact that I may or may not experience another miscarriage.

Heart is filled with joy and happiness. I have also said yes to a third shift position if they will only schedule me 4 days every 2 weeks so I can still pick up on 1st to keep up my skills and be able to have a set schedule for when I am in school. Hopefully I can pick classes that would work around that schedule or find someone to work with me. PLUS it is the position where I can study every night for HOURS while getting paid. Say what?! Exciting!

And school said I can do full time this spring. Things are falling into place and I am at peace with it!  It is quite freeing.

Of course prayers are still appreciated!  Especially our finances as being off for a month has left a toll!