Monday I got my hCG and progesterone tested. Results were 561.3 and 14.92 respectively. Progesterone should be 15-20. So I am on 100 mg of progesterone 4x a day again. Have a feeling this will be normal with any pregnancy so I should just get used to it. At least I know progesterone isn't an issue this time as close to being normal that it was. I had my hCG tested 48 hours later and it rose to 991.7 a 57% rise and they say a 60% is good. So that is just below normal also. I am hopeful and praying God will take care of this, that my fears would be quieted and that I would just find peace. I believe in my heart that I am meant to be a mommy and that this child is the first of my own I will hold in my arms. The first that I will get to see on an ultrasound and see his or her tiny heart beat. I have faith. Doubt tries to creep in, but the verse from Joshua 1:9 calls out to it pushing Satan back into his slimy little place. God says, "Have I not commanded you? Do not be afraid, Do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be will you wherever you go!" Therefore my fears and anxieties (both of which He already knew about before I apologized for them) have no place. He is the King of Kings, the Lord of Lords, an Almighty healer, and My God.
My tummy may be bruised, this extra progesterone may make me extra weepy, but I still have my GOD and my baby living inside of my tummy. Praying so hard for this one to stay. Less cramping than last time, not intense just annoying. MUCH higher numbers on both sides. And a little less stress around here I think. Closing date for house is set Jan 31st and I have peace and faith concerning that also.
I love you Lord, and I am praying for a miraculous out come. That James and I would be able to add Mommy and Daddy to our list of titles. To hear a child call my husband Daddy excitedly is going to be amazing. I hear the kids at work and my heart melts. To see a child run up to his or her mom and leap for expected hugs and kisses is so beautiful. I know one day it will happen for me. I am praying for this to be in 8 months.
I bought What to Expect When Expecting, Eating Well When Expecting, and ordered Praying Through Your Pregnancy. The first two are packed full of good information, and the last one looks amazing for prayer time, and breaks down what specific things are happening with little bean that should be prayed for...including their future belief in God. I cannot wait to get the book sometime next week! :-)
Tomorrow I get blood tested again and should get results tomorrow also, praying for GREAT results. at 2,000 we will get to have an ultrasound to figure out when my due date is. Excited for that day, plan on bringing lots of tissues!
Often things strike my heart and want to come bursting forth. They come spilling out onto the page, or computer screen. With ink filling pages or my fingers flying across the keyboard, my mind going a million miles a minute, and my heart crying out to be heard. Here is where you’ll find those things, my little notes on life.
Little Bit About Me
- Jess
- First and foremost, I am a Christian woman: I love Jesus! In this blog you will find stories of trying to conceive with PCOS, MTHFR, Poor egg quality, a unicornuate uteterus, and too many babies in heaven. It is a good thing God is the ultimate healer! Here you will find praise! and you may also find venting (I'm not perfect...) and you will find other stories of my crazy life. All the while through this journey I am holding on to scripture & hoping to one day be a mother here on Earth (waiting on God & His perfect timing...why am I so impatient?) But in the meantime, here you will find me: Jessica, loving wife, hopeful heart of a mother, and faithful friend.
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