Blessings.

Lately God has opened up my eyes to so many blessing that have been bestowed upon me in this life.

From being able to take care of the elderly that no longer can live independently, to seeing the wisdom and youth they can still hold onto even though their bodies have aged.

To being able to see the thankfulness in being able to hold my bowels and bladder to go to the restroom on my own, without someone standing over me, or the use of a catheter. Specifically a poop catheter, definitely blessed to not have a colostomy bag or a poop catheter (you laugh, there is such a thing, I promise...and as a nurse you have to flush shit, I mean it)

Blessings in my home life. From my relationship with my husband, to the miraculous blessing in Matthew (even as he is still trying to teeth and is irritable and extremely fussy), to the roof over our head and the pellets in our basement ready for winter.

I am blessed because I am free from addition that so many struggle with (minus food...that is still a struggle).

I am blessed because my parents did the best they knew and could to raise us.

I am blessed because I have the ability to be in school, to not have to study much, and still get good grades (awesome if I may brag for a moment, I got a 90% on my past exam). Blessed to have the girls I have in clinical. For the women that allow nursing students in their room as they are in moments of extreme strength and vulnerability as they push babies out of the vagina.

For the ability to help be an advocate for breastfeeding. And help women find positions that work best for them even if unconventional.

For the ability to give women advice saying I know where you are at pumping exclusively every 2 hours for 2 weeks, because I did it for six weeks. You can do it, it won't be easy, but it is possible, and so worth it.

For the ability to be there for others when they lose a child and not be afraid to cry with them if they need it, or be the person that they tell their story to, when they are grieving their loss of their baby 8 years later.

And most importantly, I am blessed for the life God has given me. From the people in it that have helped me live it, to the experiences I have had. From the days I have lived to the years I have yet to live. Blessed

And I try to be a blessing to others, speaking love, faith, and hope into their lives (I do fail many times though).

My cup is overrunning with blessings in this life and in my heart. How can I not try to pass it on?

Thank you Jesus for all you have given me and will give me in the future. Your love is amazing, and because of this I can find blessings in this crazy life we all live in.