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First and foremost, I am a Christian woman: I love Jesus! In this blog you will find stories of trying to conceive with PCOS, MTHFR, Poor egg quality, a unicornuate uteterus, and too many babies in heaven. It is a good thing God is the ultimate healer! Here you will find praise! and you may also find venting (I'm not perfect...) and you will find other stories of my crazy life. All the while through this journey I am holding on to scripture & hoping to one day be a mother here on Earth (waiting on God & His perfect timing...why am I so impatient?) But in the meantime, here you will find me: Jessica, loving wife, hopeful heart of a mother, and faithful friend.

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Saturday, July 28, 2012

19 Week Ultrasound

So I had this all typed up on my phone last night at work, but it decided to freeze AFTER I pushed publish, and guess what? All was lost. No joke. To top it off I just hit my finger on the ceiling fan when stretching, can you say ouch? I took detached part of my artificial nail left over from my best friend's wedding...and too much of regular nail for comfort :-( SO I super glued it back on. It is throbbing still. Typing surely isn't making it feel better. Maybe you guys should be happy that post is gone, it was all over the place...but I am not so happy to have to write it again!!!

First of all, they got us in right on time!! YAY! Then we got down to business of looking at the baby. He/She is head down, and was feeling to comfortable to move too much. I had to pee SO bad so after awhile she let me go because first thing she said was, "Wow your bladder is full!" LOL oh boy! Baby's heartbeat was 140 this go around. Healthy heart, Normal measuring bones, full bladder, and spots for kidneys and lungs were visible. So freaking amazing!! God is good!

Then she was trying to get the head measurements, and face shots, well baby is so LOW that she couldn't do them with the abdominal part. Needing to check my cervix anyways she had me go ahead and change for that. She STILL couldn't get those measurements!! So next u/s will be looking at the anatomy we missed. No profile or face shots for us! Little turkey!

The baby being so low is why I have felt everything low, and there has been SO much pressure. When the measured my cervix, I was expecting 4.SOMETHING due to it being 4.9 three u/s in a row! Guess what it was....3.2... MUCH lower than u/s past. I truly hope this baby moves up some and doesn't cause any issues with it shortening. Prayers back on for cervix of steel! My next u/s is in 3 and a half weeks, which seems forever a way to me considering in 3 weeks my cervix shortened. But due to it being longer than 2.5 they are happy. This momma isn't and will be fervently praying for a long and strong cervix.

Which then made me nervous, what if some of the pressure I am feeling isn't entirely movement from the baby at times and is instead braxton hicks? Already at 19 weeks? Talk about one nervous nelly. They said I could go in for a cervix check in 2 weeks but James wants me to relax and just believe God is going to take care of it. In the mean time, I am not working 10 days a pay period any more, and on days I work good bye to walks with Jack Jack. :-(

Which reminds me, the little one is measuring AHEAD of schedule. From first u/s I was told baby was measuring 2 days behind, no biggie. So due date would have been 12/19 instead of 12/17. I went with it because I know I ovulate later than most women for EDD according to when period was. That would have made me 19w2d, doctor's office still had regular EDD making me 19w4d. Well the little one measured 19w5d, and I swear I saw 20w at one point on the screen for some measurements. Over achiever!! Baby is estimated to weigh 11 oz (as I pointed out to my sisters, that is a little more than a bag of cheese haha, S was like..."Did you really just compare your baby to a bag of cheese?" Why yes, yes I did!).

I am hoping huge growth spurt is what is causing cervix's rapid shrinking and from here on out baby with have a steady growth and cervix will remain still while uterus stretches to prepare for this little one. Good news though, the placenta was nice an high, but more towards front of belly. Another reason I feel everything down low!!Kicks up high are cushioned by the placenta. Good to know.

Before the appointment I worked without a nap, due to one of our lovely cats being pissed at me for yelling at him for pissing ALL over a basket of M's clothes I had yet to take care of (lazy, I know!). So what does he do? Pees, ALL over our HUGE pile of clean laundry. Three loads later I had them clean again. Anyways, I was FURIOUS. I tossed both cats outside. And then felt guilty to my lovely sisters, bless their hearts!! Ran out, caught them, and put them in our dog kennel outside on the porch until the laundry was done. I was feeling guilty due to the "what if they get ran over.." feeling. Blah.

ANYways, so I drank a can of diet pepsi, and a cup of all regular coffee. This is a lot of caffeine for me! And was baby Hillard's first exposure to that much caffeine at once. Boy was our baby happy then! Moving to and fro, like a gymnist. To the right, to the left, in the middle back to the right...felt like I had more than one in there!! Unfortunately these acts made the baby so tired at our appointment the baby didn't do much at all. Little movements, that was it. I even tried eating fruit snacks and hoisting my hips up into a bridge to get the little on to move down. Nothing worked! stubborn already!

At the conclusion, the doctor came in and talked to us about everything looking good, cervix included according to him. He was really nice, I enjoyed meeting him. He said next appointment in 4 weeks and they would check the cervix, growth of baby (which I thought would be an issue due to size of uterus), and missed anatomy. He said due to me being high risk, he would make sure to put in the chart to do an u/s at every appointment. Yes ladies, and gentlemen (if there are any male readers...) we are back to u/s at every appointment.

I did forget to tell you one very important thing....

....surprise until August 11th still! The u/s tech turned the screen for us when looking. She wrote down the gender and printed off a gender pic for us. The green envelop has two cards in it so the writing cannot be visible when holding it up to the light, and the manilla envelope with the u/s pic in it has several pieces of colored paper so peaking cannot happen there either!!

James and I have our feelings on what the little one is, but we are not saying anything. :-) So 2 more weeks and we will all know! I will try to send a picture soon after we cut the cake on our party. But won't have much else in it due to the party going on!


Here are the pics we got...

Baby definitely has momma's feet. size 11 women's or daddy's 13 men's here we come! 
Oh and here is my baby picture from the hospital so you can physically witness the horrific toddler feet that had to come out of my mother (naturally mind you, I joke that the feet were harder to get out than the head! LOL)

Me as a Baby! I promise, I grew into my feet ;-)
Either boy parts are hidden and we cannot see it in this picture
Or there is nothing there. End of story, I am not putting my two cents in!
:-) Another note, this baby was relaxing with arm up by head, just like momma once again.
I love this little miracle already!!!

And here is the clip that we could have went without this time because baby wasn't moving much at all... (if it will load!!!)








7 comments:

  1. the way they due the ultrasound in little slices like a cat scan, there is still a big possibility something could be in between those legs!! But regardless so glad Baby is HEALTHY & GROWING!!! I am so happy for you Jess. Do you hvae names picked out? will you be sharing it before the baby arrives?

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    1. I know, there was one they showed us the umbilical cord, which was floating in between the legs. It was SO cool to watch the blood flow on it. I know there could be something between the legs, but we are remaining mute on what we kind of are thinking from what we had seen throughout the u/s. Will still be utterly surprised on the 11th. If having a boy I think it is going to be Matthew Issac, and if a girl, I think Faith is going to be the middle name. Other than that...nothing yet! We may try to pick out two names for whatever the sex the baby is and decide in the hospital.

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  2. I couldn't help but smile while looking at those images. God bless you dear. I'm so happy for you.

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  3. Aww that is amazing!! I can't wait for your next scan so we can all find out!! I'll be praying everything is okay with your cervix and no problems arise. *hugs*

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  4. Praying for your cervix of steel.
    Beautiful pictures of your precious little one.
    I'm leaning towards thinking pink...can't wait for the big reveal!

    <3

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  5. are you thinking like mother like daughter, or like father like son? haha i cant believe we have to wait for the 11th. gah. its killing me. but I'm sooooooooo stinking excited, either way. but it would soo nice to have a boy for the Hillard name to get passed down. :)

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