I have a cracked windshield, stupid lazy driver on expressway didn't dust off stones from filling up truck...stone peck. Which would have been okay for a little bit, but then we had a storm with a quick change in the temp. Which caused it to crack up the drivers side. Then it got really cold the other night and warmed up fairly quick the next day...crack up passenger side. No joke. So now we need to figure out cost of windshield repair and find that cost in the budget.
Gah.
Other than that, I am fairly certain I felt the baby moving about yesterday. :-) Made me excited!! Kind of like flutters and popcorn popping, thinking the baby is pretty active middle of day, because I am feeling the same thing I felt yesterday at this time. OOh...AND I have been looking at cribs. Going ahead and looking at them makes me really have to fight the feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like things are going to easily right now (ok minus the windshield...and needing a new set of tires, and an alignment). You know what I mean? It comes from life experience. I have my guard up a little bit.
Anyways, this is the crib that I have been leaning towards. It is the DaVinci Parker 4-in-1 Crib in Coffee.
 |
| You can find it HERE! |
 |
You can find it HERE!
I am loving the low storage that could also double as a bench if heavy duty enough.
|
I am thinking after our gender reveal party it will be time to start our baby registry. James has already said he does NOT need to go with me, lol. He knows how undecided I get and doesn't really want to walk around with me scanner in hand, hahaha.
Speaking of James, I have mentioned before how he has been kind of leery to get excited for this pregnancy. And I do not blame him. He is guarding his heart. He will not probably feel safe until the baby is in our arms. I have been telling him how you can feel my uterus now in my lower abdomen, a hard ball that is currently our baby's room. :-) He always says something like, "oh yeah" or "cool" and I try persuading him to feeling it. Finally last night I forcefully grabbed his hand and made him. The look on his face was priceless. I am trying to make it more real to him, I know he is guarding his heart...but I want him to also be in the moment. This pregnancy is real to me because I see and feel my body, appetite, and moods change out of my control. I get to feel little pokes and flutters inside my womb. He just gets to deal with my mood swings, food aversions and cravings, and watch my belly slowly grow. It simply isn't as real to him, or he chooses for it to not be as real due to our past.
Infertility and loss impacts your life forever. The effects forever linger. You find yourself jealous of pregnant bellies, even though you finally are pregnant. You get annoyed of those that get pregnant without any problem because you know that life isn't always like that. When pregnant you worry way past the first trimester about loss, because of how real loss truly is. From watching my aunt deal with her daughter dying from SIDS I know how precious even a baby you hold in your arms truly is, and how life can be cut way to short....and sometimes I wish for oblivion and ignorance. But those moments are few and far in between. Because I know how bad those that are oblivious and ignorant can hurt those of us that are living the reality of it all. I am thankful for the ability to get to know all of the women this journey has brought across my path. Thankful for the chance to minister to more and more women as time passes.
I am thankful. And SO blessed to be where I am today. No matter how long this baby's life is, I am going to cherish and love it all of those days.
I forgot to post the picture of my 16 week bump....so you can have it now :-)
 |
| This is what baby center says our little one looked like at 16 weeks |
It also says that the pattern of hair has started to form, even if not visible.
Toenails are growing.
The heart is pumping 25 quarts of blood a day.
He/She can hear my voice!
And is forming taste buds.
Sometimes it's harder for guys to feel like the pregnancy is real, I think even with people who didn't experience infertility. I sometimes forget that my husband can't feel the babies... we went 3 days without him feeling them one time because I just forgot to catch him when they were being active! I try to remember to help him feel them move every day so he gets to be a part of it, too. He gets really excited, especially when they kick back (if you tap on my belly they will sometimes tap back!).
ReplyDeleteBTW that bench looks like an Expedit bookshelf from IKEA just turned on its side. I think it is sturdy enough for that, I've seen people use it as TV stands and stuff that way.
I think you are right about that. Women just have such an immediate connection because of all the changes are in their own bodies...men just get to sit back and deal with it all until something exciting like seeing the baby on an ultrasound, or feeling a kick finally gets to happen, or better yet, holding their child in their arms.
DeleteI may have to look at the bookshelf, decisions decisions... :-)
I have that exact crib for Addy. It is really good & the trundle underneath is the best. Only thing is if you plan on using a bumper (I do use one even though they say not to now) there is no place to tie/velcro it around the back side. And no place to attach standard mobiles. Other than that, the whole thing has stayed together really well (including a move 8hrs away). The instructions are the pits, so be prepared! LOL. Glad you are doing well otherwise. Jealous of you feeling the baby. I'm 18+5 wks & still don't. Stupid anterior placenta!
ReplyDeleteWell I am excited to know that I have good taste at least ;-) I will keep that in mind about the bumper, if we get one it will probably be one that is super breathable. I didn't think about attaching mobiles, but I am sure with my handy hubby we could figure something out if necessary :-). And on the instructions, so what you are saying is be prepared for some crabbiness...LOL I am sure you will soon be feeling the baby, and not too long after that your hubby will get to feel the kicks too! I am excited for when that time comes!!
Delete