A half hour after posting my last blog the pain intensified and I cannot fully explain the pain that I felt. I started getting hot, and then felt cold with sweat still on forehead. I was balmy and in so much pain. The pain was throughout my lower pelvic area. It was then I started passing clots. From there I sat on toilet thinking I was going to puke from pain and leaned head on the wall and felt like I would pass out. I was shaking and James felt lost I think. He said my eyes were black and my face was white as a ghost. I laid on the couch breathing in through nose and out through mouth. I switched the heating pad between back and abdomen. It hurt so incredibly bad.
Now, bleeding hasn't began as what I had expected. Cramps aren't that bad. I haven't taken any pain meds since 530 this morning. Next step will be 4 Cytotec by mouth. IF that doesn't work, another 4 vaginally at Dr.'s office Monday. If THAT doesn't work D&C will follow later this week. I have to call Dr. now. To see what on call has to say. I am exhausted, feel like I haven't slept.
Be praying, because I am scared. I know God is with me. But pain was so intense and I do not want to go to OR. Laura's wedding is this weekend and I am not sure I am going to be ok to even go.
Often things strike my heart and want to come bursting forth. They come spilling out onto the page, or computer screen. With ink filling pages or my fingers flying across the keyboard, my mind going a million miles a minute, and my heart crying out to be heard. Here is where you’ll find those things, my little notes on life.
Little Bit About Me
- Jess
- First and foremost, I am a Christian woman: I love Jesus! In this blog you will find stories of trying to conceive with PCOS, MTHFR, Poor egg quality, a unicornuate uteterus, and too many babies in heaven. It is a good thing God is the ultimate healer! Here you will find praise! and you may also find venting (I'm not perfect...) and you will find other stories of my crazy life. All the while through this journey I am holding on to scripture & hoping to one day be a mother here on Earth (waiting on God & His perfect timing...why am I so impatient?) But in the meantime, here you will find me: Jessica, loving wife, hopeful heart of a mother, and faithful friend.
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