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First and foremost, I am a Christian woman: I love Jesus! In this blog you will find stories of trying to conceive with PCOS, MTHFR, Poor egg quality, a unicornuate uteterus, and too many babies in heaven. It is a good thing God is the ultimate healer! Here you will find praise! and you may also find venting (I'm not perfect...) and you will find other stories of my crazy life. All the while through this journey I am holding on to scripture & hoping to one day be a mother here on Earth (waiting on God & His perfect timing...why am I so impatient?) But in the meantime, here you will find me: Jessica, loving wife, hopeful heart of a mother, and faithful friend.

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Friday, December 23, 2011

Bad News

A went back to her mom's yesterday CPS decided it was "safe" for her there because the perpatrator was kicked out by my aunt.

False. My Uncle that owns the home kicked him out in disgust. Not Aunt K. She still thinks her husband is innocent.

She still believes that SOB. Over her sobbing daughter over her angered son...she tells her husband "I'm so sorry what you have to go through."

I'm not sorry. It was his choice, I hope in prison he gets the same treatment. I am filled with anger and hate toward my aunt and uncle.

During the car ride from the hospital with A in tears all my aunt K could say is "I need a cigarrette. I can't believe this is happening to me." My mom, driving the car, reached back and held A's hand. K sat in the passengers seat.

Damn it all, if it was my daughter I would be in the back seat with her.

But she doesn't believe, or won't believe, her children. How freaking crazy is that?

I am disgusted and beyond anger and loathing. I am hateful towards her. My aunt or not, she deserves to be put away for neglect. Because...she had to have known. And as a mother how do you NOT protect your children? How do you NOT become an advocate for them.

CPS chose the pot smoking, pedifile rapist loving, worthless piece of shiza mom over my mother. One who reads her kids bedtime stories, make sure they have food in their bellies, clean blankets, meets their basic needs. AND makes sure they are excelling in academics. Aunt K is a failure. She said so herself, yet she takes her daughter back.

My favorite out of all of this? A's case worker is on vacation from today until January 2nd. So nothing can be solved until she is back. And the poor excuse for a father? He still isn't put away. He will enoy the holidays outside of jail. The rest of us are beyond ourselves. We are angered and distraught over the decisions and K and her nasty ass husband get to not be locked up. K gets her daughter back, and we are left speachless.
I haven't told M that his mom doesn't believe him. He already has sad he hates her. She won't appologize to him. It makes me sick.

Oh and I got my HSG bill back, the surgery portion of exam wasn't covered at all 255 for that and 179 to my obgyn office. So over 400 and 255 didn't go towards my deductible, so we still have about 500 left on that for insurance and the 3,000 on copay. I don't even want to know how much the MRI, U/S, and IVP are going to cost.

1 comment:

  1. Hey sweetie, I'm so sorry to read of everything that's been going on. I haven't been reading, writing, or commenting. Trying to take a break. I wanted to pop in and let you know I'm thinking of you and praying. Sending lots of warm thoughts and virtual hugs your way <3 xoxo

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