MRI and Wonders

Ok so my phone call to do list? Massive fail. I need to call DHS tomorrow, along with BCBS on why HSG wasn't covered. AND I have my u/s tomorrow.

I am 5 or 6 dpo today. Yesterday 4 or 5.

MRI had the "Is there any chance you are pregnant" type of question. Um...No. wait. Maybe? I wouldn't know yet, they wouldn't either. Do I click No? Or be honest and say yes I could be.

You must know me by now. I had to go and tell the truth. I am 4dpo I told them, fully knowing a beta and a pee test are not going to show ANYTHING yet.

They wanted me to wait to do MRI so I could take a beta hcg test. I told them there had to be a waiver. There wasn't. The only one was for known pregnancies. I fought for me to be able to do the MRI. Said I wanted it done. I have been ttc for over a year and a half, I have lost 4 babies, and I wanted it done by the end of the year for insurance purposes. PLUS I had taken my one vallium, which you aren't supposed to take prolonged use with pregnancy. It is a class D drug, avoid completely in pregnancy.

So if I am pregnant it will have to be a God thing in the first place, especially if healthy and viable. They tried telling me, "Well there is a chance the MRI could affect your pregnancy if you were and cause you to miscarry again." Reports I have read show results are inconclusive but if you are on prenatals and eat a decent diet the baby shouldn't be affected.

So there. I went ahead with it. And have a cd with the images. Once I know what I am for sure looking at I will post a few pictures of my insides! Haha it is SO stinking cool.

I was driving James buggy looking at them. At first I was like...seriously 11 photos? And after a half hour to an hour of looking and googling other images and about to give up, I decided to click and drag. And it shows all the layers of images within each 11 photos. It is SO stinking cool.

I published this earlier without the "wonder" part. I have noticed a few days after O dizzy spells where I have had to hold onto things to keep from falling (or at least feeling like I was going to fall...). I told myself I wouldn't over analyze this.

Then the normal Jessica thing happens...I think about when I was on progesterone and all the dizzy feelings I had. Then I notice I am still wetter than normal down south. THEN I notice my nails are getting longer. One thing clicked tonight, I ovulated good this month. Between the bountiful ewcm for 3 days, and the other symptoms...no dount in my mind. Maybe I should get a progesterone test done. Ha! I don't want the extra bill... *sigh*

I have had the "I am pregnant this month!" Feeling before but if I am honest the wave of doubt in my gut always hits. This month I keep saying there is NO way I am pregnant, and that same little voice that makes me question...asks me "are you sure?"

So I wonder. As I wait. If so, or regardless of when it does happen, please pray for it to not interfere with rn schooling.

Today is my u/s and I am hoping to get a CD of that as well. I might even ask for images of the HSG while I am at it. Then I can show you all the different views of my inner lady parts haha.

Last night was hellish at work. It made me want to cry and pull my hair out.