Prayer Request and Update on Life

First off prayer request.
I don't want to share too much of what will probably be the most amazing thing to tell all of us, but Crystal at the blog I Think It Is Time had her triplets Sunday. She is doing well and the babies are in the NICU. Prayers would be appreciated. I haven't gotten an update yet today, so I am just praying all is well. So keep Crystal, her husband, and their new little bambinos in your prayers!! She was a little over 26 weeks along so it was unexpected this early! ♥ Love you Crystal! and Congrats Momma!!

Update on Life!
I have been keeping up with counting calories, and doing MyFitnessPal. I feel darn good. But my downfall has been eating like a wild woman on the weekends. Then I have to exercise ADDITIONAL to get under caloric intake OR deal with seeing my calories in RED with a big old - in front of them. And I don't like that option. But I did settle one day this weekend. Oh well I suppose.

BUT my new mantra this week is going to be: Nothing tastes as good as thin feels. I am going to depend on it, and when wanting that candy bar (yes I allow myself these all too often) or additional necessary food item, I will repeat it to myself. Imagine myself stepping on the scales and seeing 180! And then go drink some flavored water or chew a piece of Extra gum!

I have decided if I am going to have this long journey to having a baby...I might as well look darn good trying!! If anything...even if it doesn't help with the baby front, my husband will appreciate the weight loss I am sure. I am ready to feel sexy in my own skin. I am ready to be able to do Zumba and not feel grotesque by my fat jiggling all around.

I have this feeling that we will get pregnant quicker with me losing weight. But I don't want that to be my main reason for losing weight. I am trying to turn my thought process around. Some prayers are the "Lord PLEASE oh PLEASE oh PLEASE! Help me get pregnant!!!" But I am turning them around one by one to ask God, to bless our lives in the waiting. To help us be mentally, physically, emotionally, and financially ready for a baby. Because maybe he can see we aren't as ready as we feel most of the time. Maybe he knows the baby has to come at a certain time so that child can do what he or she is meant to do. Is it hard? heck yes! But it comes with a sense of relief as well.

Especially since we are supposed to be NT/NP. When it comes time where we are TTCing again and facing the choice of IUI it might be harder to hear God's voice over the inward voice saying, "I want a baby, I want one NOW!" But if God hasn't given the stamp of approval, we are going to wait.

It had been my first time praying this...and I heard this song come on the radio as soon as I said, "In Jesus' name...Amen"



And I was hopeful. I was peaceful. Even though it is a painful prayer. Lord, help me to be patient during this time of waiting. Help me to remain faithful to You. Help me to be Bold and Confident in knowing I am moving forward in the direction you wish for me. ♥