Updates

Follow Up - Not sure if I posted on my follow up appointment but here is what I learned:
~There is a possibility I have double ureters coming from Kidneys on both sides, this is why radiology recommended at CT scan. But doc said unless I have a burning desire to know and want to pay additional test fees, to just relax and store the info so in case there is an issue in the future. Such as problems with kidneys or urination, or a necessary hysterectomy.
~Anxiety meds are a possibility but we agreed exercise would probably be the best medicine in this case. We talked about her patient's side effects on the three main meds she prescribes those ttc or pregnant: Zoloft, Celexa, and Wellbutrin (sp?). Main concern she has heard with Zoloft - decreased sex drive, Celexa - inability to achieve orgasm (What?!?! That is no fun!), and Welbutrin - increase in sex drive.
~the cyst on my left ovary was/is hemorrhagic. Meaning it bleed into itself. On u/s it appeared to be in the diminishing stage. Said u/s could be done for my piece of mind. I declined. (And as you will see later, am now kicking self).
~The fibroids I have are very very tiny and not in a region where it should affect ttc and pregnancy loss. Phew! A big relief!
~ We agreed that ttc is best put on back burner until stress/anxiety die down. And that IUI wouldn't be a bad idea. She knows the doctor that would be doing my treatment so she seemed very at ease and content with all that would be in future.

Me
~ I am having pains near my left (surprise surprise) ovary. Now wondering what in the world is going on!?! It hurts way worse when I move, but varies between a preasure/ache to a sharp pain when sitting still. I am going to take tylenol and see if it gets better...but i can tel you one thing. I am wishing I would have done the u/s. Have called phone nurse and should hear from her tomorrow. If it isn't one thing it is another. Oiy.
~ The calls have began "please pay this medical bill." "Can we set up a payment plan?" I would if I could, and yes please. But no I do not have $40 to pay additional to 4 different places this month.
~ Blue Cross still hasn't paid towards my HSG. So my ob office says I owe them 255 still....what?!
~ James and I have been bickering more about finances. I am having a hard time letting go and letting him do all the finances and bill pay. I need to...I am not superwoman.
~ I have another exam tomorrow. Be praying I do much better this time!
~Did I mention my ovary is hurting, ouch! =(
~ Or maybe that I have experienced fatigue, dizziness, irritability, sore bbs this week an am currently about 8 or 9dpo I believe. (Will have to double check...), I am hoping this is it with my heart but my head says we are not ready financially!

M - had court today for sentencing. 18 months very strict probation, 5 consecutive weekends (starting this Saturday), and lots of community service hours necessary. Plus an additional fine (thankfully is less than 150). Mandatory counseling, and possible out patient treatment for alcoholism (I believe).

In the words or Porky Pig, "Well that's all folks!" I have laundry calling my name, studying needing to be done, dishing wanting to be cleaned, and a floor that needs to be vacuumed.

To those still TTC - keep up the faith. One day we will both be mommies, one way or another! Praying for the peace, strength, and wisdom to continue down whichever path God calls us to.

To those with round expanding bellies - enjoy this time, and blog everything so I can live vicariously through you! =) Praying for healthy pregnancies and babies to you.

To those with baby in arms - cherish your lovelies! You are truly blessed, post pictures and events for me too goo goo and gaga over while dreaming of one day being a mother. Praying for continued sanity on sleepless nights, healthy marriages, healthy babies, and healthy mommy.

May God bless you all and allow his face to shine upon you and give you peace.

As a fellow blogger reminded me this week, God did not give us the spirit of fear. So of whom shall I be afraid? No one. I will look to God in the good times and bad, and know he is beside me even in the muck of life! God is good. Even when I want to scream violent cuss words at him. =)