School...TTC....and Other Shiz Nits

School....
I suck at school lately. Or mostly the studying part. But somehow I have a B overall in the class. My next test is Thursday and I haven't read half of the chapters. But I plan on studying with a friend today and tomorrow. It should help me a bunch.

TTC...
My boobies have been sore lately, normal PMS/post ovulation OR could it be?
I have been exhausted as well, but that is a normal thing for me as well with my cycle.
I looked back on cycles where I was pregnant and the only things similar is pure exhaustion, sore bbs, and irritability. Which overlap with most cycles in general!

I hate that I have allowed hope to creep in. The fact that I think that I am probably pregnant, and have been thinking this since we BD'd around Ovulation. How many times have I allowed this delusional thought? Once I just knew in my heart...with my first pregnancy, is this cycle the same? Or is it simply wishful thinking?
TTC makes me crazy even when we are NT/NP...more like Trying without Medical help. Which is the only way I have gotten pregnant thus far, but also the ways that I have miscarried.

Other Shiz Nits...
My sister Missy's birthday was the 26th so we had a get together Saturday with friends. Game night. It was fun. Yummy fizzy punch (champagne, sherbert, and vernors). Loaded Questions and Imaginiff (fun board games!). Attempt at making Chex Mix (I burnt it).

Sunday early afternoon we had brunch with my family for my sister's birthday. Monkey Bread and homemade Egg McMuffins.

Then some cranky times between James and I over our messy messy house. Luckily, my wonderful family helped me clean.

THEN I found knits in my cousin's hair and made me feel nasty and itchy all over. I made my sister's check my hair like 3x that day. For anyone's future reference, if you have to deal with lice...blow dry the hair, then get a high heat ceramic straightener and kill those puppies with the highest setting. I am not even kidding I set mine at 400-450 degrees and straightened her hair twice over. When my mother got home to pick the nasty buggers out, guess what? The fell out due to being dead. No joke. Muahahahaha (evil laugh). NASTY. So needless to say, regardless of no evidence of lice being found in my hair...straight hair is the style of choice.

Later Sunday we had family dinner at 3 with James' side. It was so much fun. At one point I was on all fours playing with my nieces when all 3 decided they wanted a piggy back ride, so I gave a piggy back ride to all three at the same time. Then my nephew was jealous so they made room for him. I definitely got an arm work out. lol It was quite the sight I am sure, but it was so much fun. I played with little Molli who is a year and a half, she is such a petite little doll. And Audrey and Graysi are growing up too fast. OH and we found out SIL is having another GIRL! Woohoo! She is much more excited now and has names the little one Linsey (sp). She wanted a name that was 6 letters long and had a Y in it like the other girls. Isn't that cute :-)

Bed time for this not so wonder woman. Lets face it: I cannot do it all. I cannot manage the cleaning, work, and school.

Oh and work? They have been ridiculous after asking to be scheduled 4-6 days they have scheduled me for 9 days, and those who pick up days for me 9 or 10 days. Leaving me SCREWED. In March I will have been there long enough to get FMLA. Not gonna lie thought about getting a doctors note for anxiety to only get scheduled 4x a week, or *maybe* just *maybe* I will get pregnant and get FMLA for that. Wouldn't that be WONDERFUL? On both accounts. I would be allowed sick time without the consequences of points, and experience the joy of pregnancy.

I cannot wait to tell you all I am pregnant again. To see a beating heart on the screen of the ultra sound. To see the joy on my husband's face. To see those magical two pink lines. Gah...dreaming so I might as well be sleeping.

♥ Jess