Update on Life...Year Post later today.

Today is M's court date for the case of a stolen dirt bike. I honestly do not know if he took the bike or not. He has the bad boy reputation in his hometown, so whenever an illegal action happened (theft, breaking and entering, vandalism) they looked at M.

So I took a tardy so I can get some sleep before court today. Planning on snoozing, jumping into the shower (or vice versa bc I am coming home from work), getting ready, and heading to court. Then droping James off to work. And sometime in there calling DHS and my OB/GYN to see if ultrasound results are in yet. And maybe set up an appt to review everything.

Aunt K still has A, and A still hasn't had her rape kit done (surprise surprise...). Supposedly this week the 2 of them are moving into an apartment together. A told my mom "Mommy and Daddy are looking at apartments together." Oye vey! Seriously?! K still hasn't appologized to M, and tried setting up a counseling appt for today...his court day. Shouldn't his mother know the day?! Oh wait, she is a poor excuse of a woman, let alone a mother.

Which brings me to another point M defends her says she isn't the "worst" mother in the world. Sure I would think that too if I got away with everything under the sun, had no consequences, and didn't beat me within an inch of my life for acting the way he has (not literally, but you know what I mean!) In my head I think, yes...she isn't the worst mother she could have killed you like the psychos you see on tv. But a mom that allows her son if 11th grade to not know how to spell family (familey) or other simple words, allows his father to sexually abuse him, and does nothing to help him at all in the long run in life....that is a mother that competes for top. Because at least the psycho probably had a medical condition where voices in their head were talking to them...K? She is just lazy, depressed, and refused to find help for herself (and obviously her children).

Aaaahhh. To top all of this off...I can't sleep. Sleeping is next to impossible lately. I am pooped. And I know part of it is where I am at in my cycle. I always get exhausted post ovulation. Exhaustion + stress + crazy vivid dreams + anxiety = one cranky and mentally, physically, and emotionally drained me.

Today I am about 11 dpo. My nips are hurting. But thay could go both ways. I am pooped, but that is pretty normal. My nails are growing strong (well were until I picked at them due to stress...). I have occasionally been cramping.  Oh and yesterday I had a tinge of yellowish CM when wiping, and then a stringy brown tiny bit of CM when checking cervix. All could go either way. I should know within 4-6 days.

It would be pretty darn amazing to get a BFP for the new year. If so...CTP says I would be due Sept 14th, which would be fine by me. Praying for sometime this year to deliver a healthy full term baby. Or at very least see a strong heart beat on several ultrasounds.

Oh and I forgot the ovary with one cyst on it...is the one not hooked up. And technician said they looked normal. Now to wait for my Dr to call me and do some explaining about results and tell future plan of action.

Blllaaaahhhh!!

I am pooped!