Seriously, I have been cramping and spotting for a week now. Still waiting for AF it is frustrating me and making life not fun. Panty liners for a week. A pad today because cramps are so terrible. When is it just going to start?
It is enough to drive a person mad, add to it the experience of chemical pregnancy and you've got a loon. Cramps this week have been worst in a LONG time. Contemplating buying another test just to ease my mind.
I think its sad that not only do you lose your innocence after a miscarriage but you also start to lose hope and the life within you starts to wilt with every passing month that there still isn't a little being growing happy and healthy in your womb.
Again, Hannah is my hero for going through infertility before tests and treatments. I can barely make it through and I know the issues. Next few months are going to be filled with alternative, medicine before I go on Clomid.
Dandelion and vitex. Cough syrup. Possibly instead cups. Pressed. And possibility of acupuncture, pending if insurance covers it. But a question for other christians, how does the thought of acupuncture sit with your soul? It's Chinese medicine that believes in your qui (chi) basically your energy that flows in your body can be blocked. I think it is possible that God could create our bodies as such. Yet, is it too New Age?
There is proof that it works, studies have shown. But part of me questions if it is going against God. What do you think? I'm praying for clarity. And maybe that clarity will come in the for, of our insurance covering it or not...because it is $110 for the first visit. And a months dose of clomid is less than $10 I hear.
So tired today, had class. But super thankful that I don't have to be a zombie tonight.
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