Long Time No Post

Well, the net has been down at home. I’ve desperately wanted to blog, but desperately needed sleep more. Third shift has been getting to me lately, feeling more and more like a Zombie. Need to get back into a routine of staying up when I get home and then sleeping from like 1-9. It’s hard though, because I miss seeing James if I do that. If I sleep 730-1130 then I get to spend the morning with him until he goes to work and then sleep more after he is gone. What I think is getting to me though is the interrupted sleep lately, and to be honestly I don’t think I’ve recouped from lack of sleep Easter weekend. *sigh*

Anyways…I think God broke my internet card to make me realize that I needed to spend more time with Him. This internet-less time has helped me to turn my attention towards Him. How? I’m reading the Bible again! I read 11 chapters my first day. And so far today I’ve read 6. If I keep up the pace I could read the whole Bible in 3 – 6 months. I know this doesn’t seem practical. So I’m shooting for 6 months to a year. J And I think I can make it this time.

The question is: how do I forget how much I love God’s Word? How I love to dive into it and picture what it would be like during those times, what it would look like in a modernized today society, and how it speaks to me. What I’m trying to say is: I’m not going to let life get in the way of my relationship with God. I will read all 66 books in the Bible over the course of the next year (or less). And see my relationship with God grow exponentially. I have faith in this.

Ok and what you all have been waiting for…Friday. What happened Friday at my Dr. appointment? I know you are all on pins and needles waiting in anticipation. I was super tired from only a few hours of sleep, jacked up on caffeine, and very anxious about how my Dr was going to perceive all I was about to tell her.

So, should I have been surprised when my blood pressure was 160/110? Nope. Not at all, but I knew it was a very bad sign. I had a headache that I debated if it was from lack of sleep or blood pressure. This was the tell tale sign: blood pressure. The silent killer. No longer so silent. Dr. Hawkins booted this in the butt (hopefully) by prescribing me medicine to help it go down. Today is day 2 on it, I swear it makes me feel a little shaky/woozy. A side affect is dizziness so I take it before I go to sleep.

Anyways, once blood pressure was out of the way, she asked me about my cycles. I began to tell her. She put me on hold, explaining she didn’t know me before my losses so she’d like to get a better picture of my cycles pre-pregnancy losses. I explained everything. In detail, from August when I started charting; how long each cycle was; what day past ovulation I started spotting, everything I laid out in front of her.

Even pointed out that this month I must have ovulated late because my cycle was 32 days and my luteal phase is always 14, making my spotting start at 7dpo. SO very not normal. I asked about Luteal Phase Defect (LPD). She said she doesn’t think it’s necessarily LPD, more like I’m ovulating crappy eggs due to hormones that are jacked up from PCOS. So, I’m getting more blood work (YAY getting poked again!) day 21 of this cycle. If it comes back abnormal (which we both assume it will…) next month I start clomid.

This is pending one other test: a semen analysis. If you know me in real life please do not say anything. No man wants to get this done, or admit that they had to get one done. He would be upset with me, and embarrassed if he knew I was “telling the whole world.” I am hoping we live close enough that we can do the sample at home and I can bring it into the testing site. I don’t want him to have to give it there. I’ve read that more sperm (and healthier sperm too!) is created in a man’s own home, with a woman. Plus, the thought of having to give a sample where other men have looked at porn to produce ejaculation grosses me out.  

What is Clomid you may be asking yourself. You take it 5 days out of your cycle. For a normal person’s mind it’s a drug to trick the ovaries into producing (more) and/or healthier eggs. For the scientific mind it’s an anti-estrogen. It sends signals to the brain saying, “Hey we need more.” So the brain sends more to the ovaries, beefing up more follicles to mature. Side affects aren’t the prettiest. I’ve heard it’s like hot flashes, queasiness, dizziness, and with continued use over 12 cycles…ovarian cancer. Oh and another side affect? 8-10% of women have twins. So this is it. I am ready to be blessed with a singlet or a twin set! Yet, I think the most we will use it for now is 3 months. James and I haven’t talked about it that much. I think we are waiting for the test results. But to be honest, I just know something is wrong. Once I spotted (no pun intended) the problem I knew.

My weekend was eventful! Friday night Jenny & Matt came over for pizza and watched “The Switch” with me. It was good. Then Friday morning James & I had pancakes with maple syrup. Yummm yummm! Missy (my sister) showed up soon after. She helped me fold socks while we watched “Life As We Know It” TOTAL tear jerker. And comedy, all rolled up into one!

Afterwards, we ventured to the Maple Syrup festival. We walked through the crafts, I spent more money than I should have. These are my two favorite things I bought.

 

I bought the one with the verse from Genesis on it for the nursery. I was going to wait to paint it…but I’m getting the itch. Hopefully I get a positive soon, so I can paint away! As for the one with Jer. 29:11, it is one of my favorite verses (don't mind it turned funny, tilt your head...I can't figure out how to stinking fix it...and it's frustrating me) . It doesn’t have a home yet. I really want to get a bigger one from the guy to hang on our walls. You can check out his website here.

I also bought a thing of maple syrup, a dispenser/bag for plastic sacks, and corndogs for James and me.

This is enough for this blog I think!

I’ll start another one soon, I’m sure. Hopefully after the next couple days I’ll have the net running too.