Update on A & M

So I guess their father isnt going to go to trial by jury (or at least this is the rumor I hear....). I guess he is going to plea bargain. Supposedly he is going to get 2 yrs in prison and 10 years probation. But this is where it gets murkey.

Their mom (my mom's sister) came over to see Mom today and said she herself is getting time for knowing about the sexual abuse. (Insert evil laugh! And conflictedness because as a Christian am I supposed to celebrate this?) She will be getting 4-25 years for each incident. Each. Meaning 8-50. I would hope she gets minimal and God grabs ahold of her and shakes her world upside down (which would be rightside up to the rest of us...) instead of rotting for 50 without any spiritual growth and learning going on.

Do I still love her? Yes...but she needs to be woke up from her stupidity and nothing else is working. She just might need to lose everything to learn.

M is still in jail. Possibly out next wednesday, but could be getting more time because of drug use. I honestly hope he gets more time so the court will have charged everything to his parents and he can have time to process it in jail away from drugs, breakable things in our home, and such. I am not looking forward to him coming back because it has been nice being just the two of us again. But I am thankful he has to because it is what is best for him.

Especially once James is on days. It will be SO much better.

Notes on other areas in life?

Nursing school? ...super stressful, I am not an organized person. I am slacking, and next exam is Wednesday...I need to pass with flying colors. So this weekend admist helping SIL move I am going to make myself hit the books.

Emotionally? I still cry at least once daily. Something will hit a nerve...and the water works will drip or gush, pending on the moment.

Spiritually? I found my Bible. I am ashamed to admit I havent touched it since last September. I have been reading the verse of the day on one of my aps, and worshiping God daily. I try to say a prayer several times a day. And hope to soon add reading the Bible back into the picture.

Physically? I thought I was done bleeding so we did the deed (it had been since ovulation time...so it was well needed LOL). And then the next morning (today) I woke up to excruciating cramps, with some clots (and very minimal bleeding ever since). I popped a 800 ibuprofen and grabbed the heating pad and slept a long time (til 1pm!!)

I also have been great on exercising lately. Yesterday I grocery shopped and counted that as walking time...and was my only bit of exercise really. I have officially moved up to level 2 on my DVDs.

With diet? I am eating more fruits, but definitely need to up intake of veggies. I just dont really like them, I need to learn to again.

So overall I am doing darn good. And if honest, hoping this month will bring us good sticky news in the bay front. But I know not to hold my breath, instead I will say prayers and keep hope alive in my heart.