Hebrews 11:1 "Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see."
"The God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. But even if he does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up." (Daniel 3:17-18)
The above scripture is where Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego were tossed into the fiery furnace. I am catching up on my daily devotionals. The one from the 27th talks about this story. And how God never sets us to walk alone during fiery trials. He is always with us, and probably a friend or to. So friends, if you are reading this and know the sting of infertility. Or have the heart that understands it's sting. Thank you for walking with me, experiencing emotions most don't have to experience, and seeing the reality of how infertility impacts a person - - - and still loving me just the same.
Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
It is hard some days God to admit that maybe this is how you want life for us to be at the moment...
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be (Psalm 139:14-15, NIV).
Me? Wonderfully made? Wonky ovaries? Chunky frame? I need to remind myself I am who you created me to be. Infertility and all.
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"
Again...plans to prosper and not to harm me? Um...God? 3 miscarriages haven't harmed me? This seems silly. I feel like damaged goods...I know I know, see the scripture above. So I am left to try to find hope while waiting for the future.
“FEAR NOT, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
This last scripture has found it's way into my life over and over again. This time by email and then a blog I follow...think God is telling me He is here with me. Even if at times, I don't want to admit it.
Often things strike my heart and want to come bursting forth. They come spilling out onto the page, or computer screen. With ink filling pages or my fingers flying across the keyboard, my mind going a million miles a minute, and my heart crying out to be heard. Here is where you’ll find those things, my little notes on life.
Little Bit About Me
- Jess
- First and foremost, I am a Christian woman: I love Jesus! In this blog you will find stories of trying to conceive with PCOS, MTHFR, Poor egg quality, a unicornuate uteterus, and too many babies in heaven. It is a good thing God is the ultimate healer! Here you will find praise! and you may also find venting (I'm not perfect...) and you will find other stories of my crazy life. All the while through this journey I am holding on to scripture & hoping to one day be a mother here on Earth (waiting on God & His perfect timing...why am I so impatient?) But in the meantime, here you will find me: Jessica, loving wife, hopeful heart of a mother, and faithful friend.
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