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First and foremost, I am a Christian woman: I love Jesus! In this blog you will find stories of trying to conceive with PCOS, MTHFR, Poor egg quality, a unicornuate uteterus, and too many babies in heaven. It is a good thing God is the ultimate healer! Here you will find praise! and you may also find venting (I'm not perfect...) and you will find other stories of my crazy life. All the while through this journey I am holding on to scripture & hoping to one day be a mother here on Earth (waiting on God & His perfect timing...why am I so impatient?) But in the meantime, here you will find me: Jessica, loving wife, hopeful heart of a mother, and faithful friend.

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Tuesday, July 26, 2011

The Wait

I seriously hate this two week wait. The questioning, am I pregnant or not? I am 10dpo. So far a little cramping. 8dpo I had a sore cervix and had some pink cm...then nothing. Seriously. So I have another day after today that spotting could show and mean I am not pregnant.

I have taken an opk even after my positive one at cd 16. And they are stark white now. So I am feeling hopeful and hopeless at the same time. Especially since cramps are starting up again.

I shouldn't get down. I should be content with life. Yet it is so hard. Life is hard. The truth is...I am down. I am not happy with the fact that we are still childless. I often feel depressed about this. Probably because infertility is within the top 5 things that severely impact a woman. Some of the other tops are infidelity of a spouse and their parents dying. Yikes. *sigh*

God I am burdened. My heart is heavy. I am lost. And tired. Bless us God. Please...?

Jess

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  1. AnonymousJuly 26, 2011 at 8:57 AM

    Aw hugs! I know exactly how you feel. I hope your signs are good - the cramping could be! I will be hoping for your BFP!

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