Dreaming

I was dreaming of a great weekend with James. Romantic dinner Friday night. Day at zoo today, and tomorrow a long day at Michigan's Adventure. Wrong.

I slept past my alarm to wake up after 3 hours of sleep. Set so I could just nap, then clean the house before getting ready and heading to Mom's to pick up James before going to the melting pot. I was supposed to wake up at 1.

I woke up at 8. 10 hours of sleep. Really, I guess I was tired. James got out of work late anyways so the melting pot would have been a no go anyways. So we went to dinner at Texas Road House instead...which was quite deeeeelicious.

Today I woke up at 4 after going back to bed with James at midnight. Thus far I have done 4 loads of laundry, and should start the 5th before taking a nap until James wake up. He worked close to 60 hours this week (maybe closer to 55 I'm not sure) so he is a sleepy man.

Anyways, it is raining. So the zoo may be a no go. But we are going to see his best friend and wife (the ones that just had a baby), I am looking forward to holding onto the little man.

Tomorrow? Chance of rain too...I just want to float in the lazy river...is that too much to ask?

Speaking of too much to ask. I was hoping Clomid would make me O earlier because we have more time together when I don't have to work...and if I O when I usually do...it will be busy and that is when it feels like work. (Sad, but true).

TMI to close friends probably, but those on the TTC infertility journey know it is true...sex is work when trying to conceive. Some days you don't feel like it. But your OPK tells you you need to get some action going. And sadly, it affects men and women. James knows where I am at on my cycle. Maybe it is the OPKs on the counter in the bathroom? If so then why does he know I usually O around the 15th of the month give or take a few days.

I had a hormonal moment last night too...in dinner conversation I mentioned that my side effects on Clomid aren't as bad as some have it. On the way home we had the conversation below...and after I cried. He tried breaking the tension by saying, "now THAT is a side effect." I was lost between laughing or crying...but the tears decided to still fall.

He actually said to me when I was pursuing him, "Why you aren't ovulating yet." Seriously. I cried. Told him it is nice to have a sex life outside of ttc. To stand up for him, he was tired. He tried saying I was being "too pushy" and wanted to be the pursuer. Regardless, we both got our way in the end =) Made for a good night. Hahaha

Here is to hoping for a good day. Rain rain go away and come again later this week. But not next weekend. Would prefer nice weather for camping =)