Bad Day

Today has been a bad day for hope. I am pretty sure this cycle is going to be a flop. I am cramping stronger and no hint of a line on opk or hpt.

So needless to say I have been emotional. I feel drained of hope. I know its not over until AF shows, but am having a hard time keeping the hope alive.

And to top it off James thinks we should just try to lose weight together and not do hsg this coming cycle, I told him I think we should do both. But ultimately we have to choose together.

On top of emotions and cramps I have been having hot flashes. So not fun. Nipples are starting to hurt too. Mixed signals, temp during the day is back down, and tomorrow will be the true test for bbt. I will be able to take it after a nights sleep at normal time I used to take it.

I am debating about trying to up the metformin again next cycle and skip out on clomid. Just to see if I will ovulate with just that medicine. BLAH....I HATE this journey most days.

The unknowing and questioning. The hope and dissappointment. Month after Month.