No Promises, Only Hope

I have to be honest this birthday has been good. But definitely not as good as last year was knowing I was pregnant. I logged on and caught up on blogs, my friend Ashley had a song posted "I Would Die For That" I will post it later. I am on my phone so it is too hard to do that.

It made me bawl. I couldn't help but thinking about the past year. But here's to a new year. I am now 24, so what I have experienced a year of infertility and 3 miscarriages. This is a new year. And I have hope.

Today was a pretty good day. I got to leave work at 1 this morning. So I got to sleep next to my hubby. Woke up at 630 and did laundry, dishes, and made french toast for my sister, my husband, and me. I took my sister to school. And by 9am James was getting dressed so we could run into town.

We picked up his glasses (and he looks mighty fine in them! ;-D) and then went to buy a rake. James decided we needed to go look at the John Deere store. He wanted to show me the equipment has been drooling over. And someday I hope that dream becomes a reality.

Once home he started raking, and I decided I wanted to help. So I left for (another not the same one!) town to go to bank and pick up another rake. Once home James had decided it was too windy (I have to see if wind has died down here in a bit) to continue raking.

Then came the birthday lovin' girls at work teased me about when I left work early last night. Haha. Something within me said that we will conceive soon. I don't know if it was God speaking to me or my false hope that has invaded month after month.

I had noticed ewcm, so the ttc part of me decided to use an opk. It was darkish but definitely not positive. Thinking I am going to continue using opks and then be done with them when they are gone. I won't purchase more, but they are too tempting when they are in my bathroom drawer.