Well I have had 3 hours of sleep (couldn't sleep last night because I slept all day preparing to go to work), and am about ready to get ready for church. But I have to be honest, I don't want to leave this heating pad.
I took an ibuprofen yesterday night and it didn't touch my cramps. super heavy flow. Going through super tampon in about 3 hours. Pads quicker because I can't take the nastiness of them. They just feel disgusting. The clots are disgusting too. I once got told that is what hurts to pass, the clots...that's what the cramping is caused by. I don't know how reliable this information is...she was a nurse. But I haven't checked it against Dr. Google (lol).
Anyways, I am hoping I have a thermacare to wear today because I am hurting. Kind of fitting because it takes a little bit of the attention off from my emotions. My cramps probably feel as bad as I did emotionally when I started spotting.
I feel broken and full of pain. And disgusting. Blah.
On a good note. I talked my hubby into going to see Courageous this afternoon. If we go at 1 it is an early matinee and we can watch it for 4.50 each, and the popcorn will cost more than our tickets combined. Probably less than 25 for our little date. One of my good friends told me to bring LOTS of Kleenexes. So I will have to pack a sandwich baggie full.
Well I have to go wake up James, he will probably be upset I let him sleep this long. We have to leave around 9 to head to church. He can get ready in 40 minutes. He just might not have time for a big breakfast, oh well we have bananas =)
Often things strike my heart and want to come bursting forth. They come spilling out onto the page, or computer screen. With ink filling pages or my fingers flying across the keyboard, my mind going a million miles a minute, and my heart crying out to be heard. Here is where you’ll find those things, my little notes on life.
Little Bit About Me
- Jess
- First and foremost, I am a Christian woman: I love Jesus! In this blog you will find stories of trying to conceive with PCOS, MTHFR, Poor egg quality, a unicornuate uteterus, and too many babies in heaven. It is a good thing God is the ultimate healer! Here you will find praise! and you may also find venting (I'm not perfect...) and you will find other stories of my crazy life. All the while through this journey I am holding on to scripture & hoping to one day be a mother here on Earth (waiting on God & His perfect timing...why am I so impatient?) But in the meantime, here you will find me: Jessica, loving wife, hopeful heart of a mother, and faithful friend.
I am now just catching up on blogs because things are so crazy here. I am so sorry that this is happening to you, I'm going to log off of here now so I can have a good cry for you. ((Hugs))
ReplyDeleteIt will be okay. I will survive. I am just ready for that ray of hope to shine upon me and my husband. For our rainbow baby to be on his or her way. It will happen, I just don't know when.
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