Another BFP for a fellow blogger. I won't link to who because she hasn't posted on her blog yet, only on her facebook page. I have to say I am hopeful for her! She is 9dpo and got a Yes+ on a First Response Digital! Holy Toots!! AAAAhhhh =D I hope this is her sticky bean and doesn't end up being another loss. I'm praying so HARD for her, and you should too!
And for me. I am excited to lose some weight, and I am starting to be okay with the fact that it may be another 2+ years before we have children. Sure I will have good and bad days. I probably always will. I will always miss my babies until I get to heaven and get to see them and hold them in my arms myself. BUT, I have come to the conclusion that I need to better things in my life.
Like...
House Cleaning. Seriously, James and I are in talks about a chore chart. He is game. Now I just need to decide how to do one.
Bible Reading. I didn't know where my actual Bible was until recently. I have been using phone lately, a verse a day though...simply isn't going to cut it.
Worshiping God. I don't make enough time in my day to stop and worship God for who he is.
Our Savings. I am ready to do Dave Ramsey again. I am sick of living pay check to pay check.
My Prayer Life. I need to stop talking sometimes and listen more. I need to talk to him, and not get upset with his answers.
Reading (period). I need to read more. Classics, Christian Books, anything. I spend way too much time online surfing my ttc websites.
Exercise! I need to make time every day, every day. With maybe taking Sundays off. I want to be healthy and off of my blood pressure medicine.
My Health. Like I said, I want to be off blood pressure medicine. Save that 10 dollars a month. I want healthier number of my HDL cholesterol. I want to lose weight. I currently weigh 204 lbs (as of this morning) and have decided to make my first goal to be 180 lbs. After that? I hope to get down to 160 and see how I feel from there, potentially I could get down to 135 lbs...I don't think I've weighed that since elementary school.
My Appearance. I am sloppy. I will admit it. My eyebrows haven't been done in probably 2 months (they look like out of control caterpillars) and my mustache is growing in disgustingly. My clothes are often wrinkled, and I am lazy with my hair. I don't look closely in the mirror more than probably twice a day on average.
If my life is in this many shambles without children I am crazy to think it would get better with babies (though my heart would probably be content ♥ ). So while I am starting to prepare myself during my future wait to continue ttc (unless we get our miracle BFP within the next couple months!), I am going to be focusing on bettering my life, with God's help of course!
Jess
Often things strike my heart and want to come bursting forth. They come spilling out onto the page, or computer screen. With ink filling pages or my fingers flying across the keyboard, my mind going a million miles a minute, and my heart crying out to be heard. Here is where you’ll find those things, my little notes on life.
Little Bit About Me
- Jess
- First and foremost, I am a Christian woman: I love Jesus! In this blog you will find stories of trying to conceive with PCOS, MTHFR, Poor egg quality, a unicornuate uteterus, and too many babies in heaven. It is a good thing God is the ultimate healer! Here you will find praise! and you may also find venting (I'm not perfect...) and you will find other stories of my crazy life. All the while through this journey I am holding on to scripture & hoping to one day be a mother here on Earth (waiting on God & His perfect timing...why am I so impatient?) But in the meantime, here you will find me: Jessica, loving wife, hopeful heart of a mother, and faithful friend.
ahhh! a chore chart! I ♥ it!! although im alittle OCD so I would end up taking over anyways. LOL -- Ive made it though that DH helps me put laundry away. I HATE that chore. I wash, dry and fold and then take the clothes to the bedroom to sort then he puts his away. It makes to go faster and gets him involved. Thought I would give you that suggestion!! :)
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